Talk & Meditation
Pandemic Talk – March 2020
Things can change in an instant, and they did.
Men often suffer in silence. There is always hope. There is always help. Shamanic healing and reiki were an incredible combination for me as a survivor myself. They helped me learn how to let my body release what it held, they helped me learn to have a new perspective on myself, and my experience, but most importantly, to bring back the power, not the trauma.
For years I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I felt disconnected. I describe it now as feeling like I was visiting in my own body. I hadn’t really moved in. No matter how happy I should have been, I was constantly battling with a heaviness, I call it “the dark backpack”. I knew it was there. I just didn’t really want to look at what was inside. I knew it was bad. I knew it was painful, I knew it might break me apart. So I carried it, for a long time. Until a time when it was as if I exploded my own life. I got fired. My relationship ended. I was left sitting wondering what happened. It was then that I realized I’d spent a really long time protecting people I shouldn’t have, doing things to make other people comfortable, pretending everything was fine. I was always disruptive. I always had an escape plan. It took a lot of work to unravel all of the reasons why. It was hard, at times it was excruciating, but I was ready. I wanted to be able to enjoy life. Without self medicating, without being so uncomfortable, without the suicidal thoughts. I wanted to know what it would be like, what if it never happened? What would I be like? How would I feel? Who would I be? So, I committed. I was ready but through the combination of healing modalities, I felt a lot better fast. Because abuse, is primarily about power. It’s power theft. When an adult touches a child, they start long before that, they are expert planners, schemers, and plotters. I never had a chance.But as an adult, I did. And well into my thirties, I’d had enough of glossing over it. It was time to lean in. I don’t think about suicide anymore. I haven’t had one moment in the last 4 years where that has crossed my mind. I haven’t had a drink in 2 and a half years. Things changed. They can change.
You can get better. You can move forward. You can heal. You can put the dark backpack down, and you can find the one you had before you started carrying the heavy one. Shamanic healing is about restoration of power. Authentic power. Your own unique brand of power. We all have one. As a survivor, I can say, the kind of power we have, and the kind of light we have the capacity for, is EXACTLY why I work with survivors. Men. Women. None of us are immune. It happens to boys and girls. And I promise you whatever you may feel was taken from you, your little self. You deserve to have them back.
“Chester Bennington’s life may help male sex abuse victims speak up” #survivorsunite
You Can Do It.
What if I were to tell you that how you’re feeling at this very moment is how most human beings on the planet are feeling right now?
That you are not alone. That this is all a part of a massive shift back to how we’re meant to be living on the planet in 2017. Consider that regardless of where you live, where you’ve come from, or what you’ve been through that all of the people in your ancestry who lived before you laid the groundwork for you to be here at this moment. Right now. For this transition. That you are meant to be a part of the change. A part of the solution, a part of getting back to our purpose.
Consider this, for a moment. So many of you are having such big challenges, hurdles, and heartbreaks this year. It’s so important to recognize that this is a year of shifts and change. Human beings have never been so out of sync with the natural order of life in all of our time on this planet. We have disconnected from nature, from one another, and most critically, ourselves.
We spend so much of our time thinking about the future, about the past, and about what is happening in other people’s lives. What if I were to tell you that all that matters, really matters, are the moments? Being present. Operating from our hearts and souls, rather than ego. That putting your phone down to check in with yourself is actually the best thing you can do, for yourself, for your family & friends and for the planet right now. We are all here for a reason. All of us.
This year, and for the last few years, you may have been feeling lost, uncertain, unsure, trapped, locked in, hopeless. Or maybe you just haven’t been sure of what the point of it all is.
This is part of our collective journey. Our collective awakening. Every single being on this planet has a reason for being here. I’m sure of this because I’ve come out of that place, and remembered who I was meant to be. You can too. It can get better. Human beings have gone through a time of immense ego for many decades now. We have measured our success based on what we can accumulate. How many followers we have. How many likes we get. How much money we make. We have utilized inauthentic power. Inauthentic power is money, greed, ego.
The thing about inauthentic power is, its finite. It has an end. There’s a bottom. It is not infinite. We are witnessing that now. We as human beings have reached the bottom of the barrel. We have pillaged our own planet, we have treated everything as if it is replaceable, we have forgotten our past. We have prioritized all of the wrong things. All of the things we will not be measured by. All of these things. All of this stuff. It means nothing. We have forgotten our connection to one another. To community. To faith. To love. We have become almost parasitic. We have been asleep at the wheel. We are witnessing this as a collective species right now on Earth. We are not evolved. We are murdering one another, our animals, our flora, all of the things we actually need to keep us alive – and by all accounts “happy”. We are stuck. Collectively.
But here’s the good news. You CAN remember. You can change your current means of fuel from inauthentic to authentic. You can vibrate out of this. We can move from being fueled by ego, to being fueled by our soul.
You only need one thing. Intention. You need to have the intention to heal. We are all not “okay” or “fine”. We’ve been saying it too long, it doesn’t make it true. Most of us are not fine. We are carrying pain, trauma, fear, shame, anger, and all kinds of other uncomfortable things. We can put those things down and replace them with happiness, love, kindness, balance, health, empathy and compassion. I know this because I’ve done it.
I’ve personally been able to lay down my rage, pain, trauma and ego to replace them with happiness, love, gratitude, compassion and balance. We can be free of shame.
We have all of the tools we need to be able to free ourselves. We just need help to remember. I am here to help. Part of coming out of my own healing was coming to the realization that I didn’t just feel the need to help others to find their purpose and rid themselves of shame, was that I was compelled to do it. I believe in the future, but what is most important to me is the present. That we aren’t spending those moments in so much pain, shame or trauma that we aren’t able to enjoy the moment as it happens because we’re trying so hard just to keep our heads above water. We can vibrate higher. We can be more than fine. I promise.
If you’re ready for me. I’m ready for you.
You can do it. I know you can, because I did.
Well, it seemed like another video is in order. So here it is, some thoughts on how to stay centered in the midst of this transition.
Question: from loving_vibrations via instagram
“Hey! Hope you dont mind us asking…. We were wondering what techniques you use to find your own balance and inner-peace in this world?”
Answer: We made a video which relates a bit to this today which we’ll post, but this is probably the most asked question lately, given the state of things right now on this pale blue dot. The important thing to remember is that we have (humans) been here a long time. So the fact that we are here now, the ones who survived, not bad. Not bad at all. That’s not a bad place to start. I find thinking about the past, makes me more hopeful about the future. For example, thinking about all of the people who had to make decisions to get to you even being here. That’s a good one to put things into context. It always leads me to the place where I just feel really grateful that all of these people (for the most part) made the best decisions they could for the future. That’s amazing. So even if I don’t feel accountable to myself to try to be balanced and positive, I feel accountable to them. I believe this is why honoring ancestors is such a big part of so many cultures around the world. It’s a great way to practice gratitude. The second thing I do is spend as much time as I can in a day with nature, now that could mean I greet a squirrel, or that could mean I have time for a walk, whatever I can reasonably do. I try to do it. Slowing down and vibrating at the speed of nature for a bit (without a smart phone) will bring you back into your heart. Its hard not to watch birds, or any bit of nature for any length of time and stay in your ego. Another way. DANCING! or just bopping around to a favorite song. Taking the time to move around and zone out for a few minutes is really grounding and balancing. Sometimes I like to imagine that me moving is helping aid in the peaceful and smooth transition for humanity. Using your imagination and taking yourself out of routine is a great way to stay balance and have some moments of inner peace. If you do it before your day, it’s something you can go back to throughout the day if I’m having a challenging time. Especially if I danced anywhere near a mirror. Having those funny snap shots in my day helps. I almost think of it like fuel. The more joy I put into the tank, the better. Not just for me, but ideally for anyone who comes into contact with my energy. The last thing, which is one of my favorite ways to connect, and feel peace is to think about Space. I think about how amazing it is that we are here at all, and how incredible it is that we have survived this long, and how magical it all is. I find that to be a great motivator for staying positive as well, because I feel like we have this big chance to do something special and we need to do our best. It’s about doing our best in the moments, with the only thing we can control in life- our own intention. If we focus on doing our best, showing up in the world, and being present in the moments, you’ll find the days get easier. Thinking more about what we need to do and who we need to connect with in the moment, helps to achieve groundedness and inner peace. So that’s another thing, connecting with likeminded people who really fuel you. I try to connect with my closest friends as often as I can, it helps me to stay energized, to share with people vibrating at the same frequency.
I’m excited to be speaking in the Shine Your Medicine Ceremony and share how I break through fears & offer my unique gifts.
Do you feel a stirring in your soul to provide a true light in the world? Even though the world may be dark and bleak at times…or especially for that reason? Whatever you’d like to do to provide that healing light through your calling, I’m with you.
That is why I’m so excited to let you know about the Shine Your Medicine Ceremony that my friend Torie Michelle Feldman is hosting. This FREE online series of sacred conversations is empowering and life-changing.
Torie is a sought-after Leadership Coach for Medicine Women. She is passionate about helping women get crystal clear on their soul mission and empowering them with practical tools to make that a reality through a unique blend of shamanism and confidence coaching. That is what the Shine Your Medicine Ceremony is all about.
I am among the 21 experts that were interviewed by her, along with other priestesses, shamans, mediums, intuitives, and new-paradigm entrepreneurs who have all mastered the art of how to break through their blockages and serve their heart-medicine freely without fear.
This is a ceremony full of deep magick, awareness of our guides, and transformative techniques. A truly heart-centered space is created as Torie will lead an opening, blessing ceremony to begin these conversations and a closing, sealing ceremony to end. By signing up, your energy will be part of the flow, and the collective energy of all our intentions is what will charge this work.
To all you light workers, mystics, and intuitives who feel the CALL of the Medicine Woman within— this ceremony was created especially for you.
Step into your power. Clear your doubts and fears.
Imagine if you had the confidence to do what speaks to your heart without any fear of judgement, failure, or not being good enough.
Come join us as we explore this path with you, showing you the tools you need to know, and what’s helped us on this journey.
Let us walk with you.
This event starts on April 4th. Join now by clicking here.
Torie believes the earth needs us now. I believe that too. Do you?
It’s a time like no other. We are more connected to one another than we’ve ever been, yet we are more disconnected from each other then we have ever been. We have for the last 50-60 years been focused on capitalism and consumption. In the last 10 years we’ve focused on other people. We’ve watched Kardashians, Housewives, Apprentices. However, we’ve lost touch with our community, our family, our natural world. We also lost faith. Systems, organized religion, these things we had inherited for generations, the churches, the prayer, the things that often weren’t imprinted with the right amount of reverence. We all searched for meaning, through consuming, through surgery, through money, through power, through others. We somehow vibrated right out of ourselves and became predatory to ourselves again, we reverted. We also blindly trusted. We assumed all of these governments, systems and decision makers, that they all had our best interests in mind. We thought someone was minding the shop. It’s now 2017. We are more connected now than we have every been. We are moving in more unison than we have in generations. We are choosing to wake up, millions of people around the world are remembering that we are a part of a system which is far more intelligent than ANY human beings have ever created. We are a part of nature. We are able to vibrate and connect right into the power of the Universe, The Stars, Planets, the Earth, of one another, of ourselves. We have just been asleep at the wheel.
Consider that for a moment. Think back. Human beings built pyramids. Human beings evolved and survived. We learned about our world. Human beings around the world for the last 50,000 years also have used the same techniques (percussion) to heal others. But then we forgot. We discovered power, greed, we entered into the realm of pure ego. And here we are. Our planet is in peril. Literally. We are in apocalyptic times. The Ocean is dying. The land is being literally fractured and raped. Our planet is in trouble. And, It’s our fault. All of us. Together. We all had a hand in this, and it’s critical we all take our hands off of the panic button and place them on our hearts. We did not survive and evolve to be this. To do this. We did not. We cannot. Our ancestors, relatives, they never wanted this for us. This is where I have faith. I truly believe that we are finally in enough peril where we are literally watching the worst of humanity drive us all into a brick wall. Well, I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to go with them. I don’t think life on Earth deserves what we have done. I think we can fix it. I choose to believe that if we all put our hearts, minds and intention to connecting, and leading with understanding – maybe even letting Women have a go at driving for awhile. Let’s see where we can take this. Because, I think, we’re just waking up. If we all, as we wake up, bring even just one person along. We’re already winning. I know there’s so many of us who care. I know i’m not the only one. If you don’t have hope, I’m going to have enough for both of us. Okay?
It’s ok to admit that our systems have failed us & we’re broken. Change is the one thing life promises us. We are united in love. We will win. Keep pushing. Every day. If you’re not feeling hopeful. You’ve come to the right place. I am going to keep you motivated. We are turning this around, it’s a big ship to turn, but we are going to do it, and we all need to take the wheel.
We need a lot of hands to turn this thing around. I look forward to working with you, whether through connecting in this way, or through actually working together in healing practice. It’s time. And I’m all in.
– Love – Amy