Healing Trauma

When you grow up in trauma & you don’t heal it, you will choose trauma until you do.

Art by the Amazing Lori Menna @ Cosmic Collage

I chose men who abused me over the men who loved me. 
I chose friends who didn’t care about me over those who did.
I chose protecting people I shouldn’t, because that was what I was trained to do.
I chose pain over peace.
I chose substances and alcohol over being present.
Etc. Etc. Etc.

Then, one day –  something changed and I chose me and every day since that’s how it’s worked.

One day at a time. One foot in front of the other.

As I walked the path – I realized the common denominator in all of my pain was me. I realized I had been carrying around layers of trauma, I  realized losing my best friend took part of my soul, I realized my relationship with my father had never been appropriate, and I realized I couldn’t ever remember a time where I felt truly safe. 

I realized I’d spent my life running and building this false wall of popularity, addiction, manipulation and lies that could protect me from what was I was carrying inside of me. 

Layer by layer, bit by bit I did and am continuing to do the work (that’s why it’s called a healing journey, because it is).  I’m learning. I’ve faced my truths. I’ve unpacked it. I’ve sought justice, and mostly I’ve gotten it. I ’ve evicted the abuser archetype from my life and most importantly from my own head. I have set down addiction and enjoy sobriety. I accepted my PTSD. I stopped running. Now I try to be of service to help other people walk through the darkness and into the light. It’s our right. We don’t need to live in the dark. 

It’s the greatest work of my life to be able to see people just like me, find out that isn’t a life. It’s a construct and a cage that trauma puts us in. We can free ourselves from past bondage. We can live in harmony and glide more easily through the waves in the flow of life –  (smooth sailing isn’t life on earth – it’s about being in the right kayak). 

We can heal. You are NEVER too broken  to be fixed. You are not what happened to you. You are a light. Your power is your story and your story is your power.

Hang in there. We got this – the best part is when you heal yourself, we heal the world. When you are in balance, so becomes your relationship with the world around you.

When you’re ready. I’m ready.


The Season of the Witch?

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Greta Thunberg – Photo ℅ Evening Standard

We are in the midst of massive transition on this planet. Humanity is in a state of change and evolution. Evolution hurts. It is not an easy process. For the last 3 years we have been experiencing truth on a level many hadn’t been aware of. The systems that built modern society are crumbling.

White Supremacist Patriarchy, Capitalism, Colonialism. Organized religion. We are seeing the cracks in the very foundation of what the Western world was built upon. Not surprising really, given the lack of stability in these systems meant to hold us down, to hold us back, to control us.

When most of us think about the archetype of the Witch herself, we think of the patriarchal version, the evil crone. The one who eats children, and makes deals with negative unseen forces. These were simply the lies told to steer people away from spirituality and into organized religion.

Oracles, Shaman and Witches are not evil, most in fact are bound by codes and conduct governed by the very laws of nature, universal law and justice. These archetypes have been demonized in order to divide us from our own divinity. Ironically, the teachings of one of my favourite guides Jesus Christ, are more shamanic than most people want to admit. Jesus held counsel with witches. He did not spew hatred or division. He spoke of unity, and shared what we are all as human beings capable of. We are co-creators in this reality. We are all part of both seen and unseen worlds. Ordinary reality and non-ordinary reality, on earth as it is in heaven – or as above, so below.

We have come to a crossroads now. A time where we have become at odds with the systems that support our very lives on this planet. We are watching climate change’s destruction of so many ecosystems and beings. Yet, so many don’t believe. Don’t see what is right in front of them. This requires fierce compassion. These people, the ones denying the truth, eyes covered to the horror, are the ones who have been indoctrinated the most with the systems of man. The systems designed to control us, are working on them. We cannot face them with hate. We must face them with fierce compassion and love.

Why? Why should we send love to those who send hate?

We should reflect love and truth because the systems that these people have been fooled by are crumbling. They will fall. We will dismantle the systems that are killing us, and we will build new ones.

This is already happening. We are watching the fall of governments around the world, we are witnessing mass protest, mass organization, instantaneous communications world wide. The web of life, which connects all life, all humans, was once just energetic. We could send hatred to people, and it could take a long time for it to make its way around the web back to us. Now these pathways are moving faster. People are waking up now, opening their eyes to the idea that perhaps the truth is that those who created these systems did not do it with love in their hearts, they created these systems to ensure some people had more power than others. That these systems are quite literally killing us. A few powerful men are deciding the fate of all humanity.

This is the result of witch trials (the real ones, not the ones the patriarchy keep calling out). This is the result of patriarchy, misogyny and capitalism, now as we watch people die on the internet, as we see fires burning up beings that will take hundreds of years to replace, as we see flooding so severe places are becoming uninhabitable. We see common messages. We see migration, we see the rise of the Indigenous peoples around the world who we should have been listening to the last 500 years, we see the rise of the archetype of the witch. Have you heard that word more often in the last 3 years?

That’s not an accident. It is our return. It is our season. This is why we are here. Witches are activists BY nature. We are activists FOR nature. When magic was a part of our daily lives we did amazing things. This magic is not just for men, for the rich, for the powerful, it is for all of us.
It was always for all of us. We each carry the perfect power necessary for our purpose on this planet. Your gift is your magic. You are born with it. It is in your soul. I don’t think there’s any better example of the power of purpose right now, than the 16 year old who has risen to global recognition. Greta Thunberg perfectly personifies the archetype of the witch. Whether she self identifies as one, or not, I haven’t seen any one in recent history who has literally become a voice for the elements on a global scale the way she is. She is a messenger in a time where so many men try to silence us, and she will not be silenced. Her power is quiet, and gentle – but when she roars we feel it in our bones. This is not an accident. She is a beacon, one of many rising in the world now. The season of the witch is upon us, and I welcome you to the time of uprising, change and transformation.

So, wake up Witches. We need you. All corners of the world, all beings of light, all those in service to love. Welcome to the season of the Witch. It is time to stand up, for this time we will stop them.

A poem for Greta. A poem for you.

She travels by wind and water.
Though, so many spew hatred on her.

She speaks for those without a voice.
She lets us know there’s no more choice.

We are here now to turn the tides.
We must listen, feel and open our eyes.

For some of you this may make you twitch,
This is the archetype of the witch.

With activism, honor, and magic we fight.
We will not stop until all is right.


Amulets, Talisman & Charms

Ever since I can remember I have created amulets & charms.

Collections of special objects, carried, worn, stowed or hung to back up an intention, represent a feeling or a moment. I am known for my collections and eccentricities. My altars and objects. Adornments galore.

A recently unearthed Sorceresses kit from Pompeii

As a little girl I hid these treasures away from the world, perhaps due to the unconscious and inherent understanding that it wasn’t safe to share such magic. Now though, as a woman, I know the world is ready and needs more magic than ever. We are finding objects in Egypt and now the ancient city of Pompeii, when magic was still a part of our daily life. Amulets and charms were created to hold intentions, or other positive properties to benefit the wearer, or owner.

Ancient Egyptian Amulets

Most of us have let go of such objects in our daily lives but reminders of our magical past are coming through as clues to what we’ve forgotten. We used to live in mind, body AND spirit. We used to have individual relationships with the divine. We believed in magic. When we lost this wonder, we lost our connection to the very magic that exists all around us. When we create physical representations of our intentions, wishes, or goals it’s as if we are embodying that intention in it’s physical form. As above. So below. On Earth, as it is in Heaven. We had the tools we needed to help us glide through life more easily. It is patriarchal, colonial and capitalist systems that told us not to believe, who burned witches, who organized religion to control.

With Spirituality, we are stronger, more clear, more sure, and those are the things that endanger the very systems developed to control us. It’s time to shed that skin, and return to the magic around us, to notice the clues, the return of great civilizations through their antiquities, arising out of the earth. Literally to remind us that we were great once, and how we did it. The Egyptians didn’t build the pyramids alone. They used the gifts at their disposal. It’s time we do the same. Start small. Start with an amulet, talisman or charm.

I’m available to create something special for you. It can be charged with all of your dreams and wishes, as part of ritual work – or just as an object on its own. A few of the amulets, charms and talisman I’ve created are pictured below. Some are for the home, and some are meant to be worn. Each was created with specific purpose, intention and protection for their owners.